KID talk

So I have a problem.

When I was working outside the home, I was very involved with the adult world.  In fact, that's all I dealt with.  I maybe dealt with kids(including my own) 2 hours a day tops.  I always loved kids, it just wasn't part of my job.  In fact, I always wanted to be a teacher.  That was my dream.  Instead, I ended up in the corporate world, babysitting adults and metrics.

When I quit working, I dabbled a little here and a little there with what I wanted to do.  Then there became a need for me to start babysitting a child for a friend.  Then it became babysitting another kid for another friend.  Then it became babysitting two more children for another friend.  And then pretty soon, I had people chasing me down to babysit their children...which I was fine with because I needed the money.

So now my day consists of cartoons, learning our letters and animal sounds, doing a craft with Cheerios, breaking up arguments and singing songs...every day.  AND I love it!  But here is the problem...

There are women in the neighborhood who do get-togethers at the park and restaurants and what not.  It sounds fun and they invite everyone.  In my head, it sounds like fun but my stomach and anxiety say otherwise.  I feel like if I go and socialize I will squish up like a bug caught in a spider's web.

I guess I have come to the conclusion that I only speak "Kid" now.  I get anxiety thinking about interacting with adults.  What do I talk about?  It's not like I can sit there and sing "ABC's" and "Old McDonald" with them.  That would actually be kinda funny.  

Going to anything that has to do with mingling with other women scares me.  Is it because I am more comfortable with kids?  Heck yes it is.  They are fun!  You can make funny faces and laugh silly and dance.  And they say the darndest things!  One little girl told me she is scared of the rain because her mom will blow away.  Another one told me that I better get an apple tree and bucket so she can pick an apple for her mom.  The older ones I can be sarcastic with. 

I love these little ones.  

I guess talking with kids and making lions for the letter L is much more fun than giving a quarterly presentation on my metrics.  

And as far as interacting with adults...well...

"You will find more happiness growing down than up." -Author Unknown